So much can be learned from a childhood method of discipline, Timeout. When I send my daughter to time out to think about her actions, it allows her time to be still. But as adults, we forget the importance of pausing. We set goals, and work toward achieving them. But how many times do we actually sit and enjoy our accomplishments? How many times do we show gratitude for the season we are in before taking off to the next destination? I can only speak for myself, and honestly speaking never have I never lived in the moment or the now.
I’ve decided to take a timeout. The past 3 years of my life have been hectic, and I finally feel like I can catch my breath. It seems in my life the biggest blessing come after being tested beyond measure. I have accomplished some of my big goals recently, and could not be more happy with the path my life is on. These accomplishments did not happen without strain on my mental health, my family, my marriage, my friendships, and my identity. I am grateful for the ups and downs life throws me because anything left after a storm was meant for me.
It’s time for me to pause. Wanting more always comes with a price and I am not ready to pay it. It took a lot of hard work, sacrifices and dedication to accomplish my goals. I just want to enjoy my family and live in the product of that work. Late nights and early morning are great but for now, they will only be filled with the laughter and joy of my family. Being a go-getter has always been something-something I loved about myself. As I get older I am realizing sometimes there is a need to be still.
A need to refocus, re-adjust, and reclaim. At this moment I don’t know what’s next, I don’t know what I want. Sometimes it’s hard getting what you want because now you have to find new wants. I just want to be open to receive what’s next for me. As a planner just enjoying life will be hard, but small moments will become big moments. Some of life’s most incredible gifts come unexpectedly, so I am keeping myself open to receive. Maybe the next chapter will just be building up my gifts and passions but for now, it’s just living every moment to the fullest.